Getting Cut Off Soon

My mother asked me today what I would do if my father cut me off financially. I told her I would re-do my FAFSA so it would say I was independent and poor. Also I would never come home. She brought it up because my father was disappointed by the fact that I want to go to camp for the full 8 weeks next summer. He asked me about it today; I'm thinking,"This summer isn't even finished yet!" He got on me about how I need to get a real job so I can help out more with school. How I would make more money if I came home and worked with Sears instead of going to camp. I see his point...I just don't care. I want to go back to camp...and that's final. He is also practically fighting with my mother about me over this issue that is so far in the future. My mom told me he is just looking for an excuse to cut me off. I asked my mother if she would help me if that happened and she said it would have to be in secret. What the fuck is that about? What happened to parents caring about their children?

Mom also told me today that she lies awake at night thinking about leaving and getting an apartment. She said she doesn't know how much she could help if she was having to support herself.

Is it just me, or has my family gotten severely disfunctional all because of my presence.

My father hates me because I don't show him any respect. I don't respect him because he has been an asshole since I can remember to not only me but my mother. My father is mad at my mother for seeing my side and feeling bad for me. My poor mother is going crazy having to listen to us both. She said she was thinking about going to see a counselor; she's already on anti-depressants thanks to the misery that is living with my shithead of a father. I feel bad for her, she is a good woman and she tries really hard. I feel bad that I'm leaving her alone to deal with the bastard's shit. She deserves better than him.

I'm starting to think that I might get cut off soon. Threats have been occuring quite a bit recently. Unfortunately, it'll be awhile before I can fix my financial aid status, so hopefully he'll do it right before I can change things. Come to think of it, I would probably have a lot easier time paying for college if he left. Bring it ASSHOLE!

Maybe if I tell him I'm a lesbian, it would get the job done.